alone

Ive never felt this cold and alone in my life, got to be honest. There were a lot of times that i wish someone would look at me and be mesmerized by whatever there is in me to look at .And then you came, with those 2 pair of eyes that consumed me from that time that i realized that there might be somethng in me tht someone wud be able to fall for.. I shook my head knwing that ivw always been the option nt too stunning to impact even a herd of sheep. But u made me realize that the entire mountain would sway with how i walk, that the seas would bring me to the horizon i never thought possible to reach.Then you closed your eyes and the thunders brougt me down to a great fall. Im lost im shuddering. Worse. Again after all these emotions i'm alone.


note this was a post ive missed to publish a very longtime ago.

so what

so what, if you don't write about me...
------you tell me everything when we're together anyway
not everyone loves you for me....
so what?
------you love me for everything i am...
you don't always give me the right assurances
------ i love you just the same, nevertheless

so what, if i can't inspire you like everyone else did before me
------ you inspire me all through out
your poems for me are unoriginal, copied and worn
------ they delight me just the same
you don't always tell me the nicest things
----- i love you for being brutally honest

you've made mistakes, a lot of them actually
----- and so did i
you've not granted me peace of mind yet
----- yet i love you for giving me your piece of shit
you can't even memorize my number
----- but the efforts are undeniably cute
my coffee as usual is forgotten
----- but you're hotter than what i don't want my coffee hot

so what, if you've a lot of flaws
that i love you more than you love me
that you're too lazy to make me feel special
i don't care, the others may give me what you don't, can't and just don't want to
but you are what i need, what i love, and what i'm crazy about

so what? i'm crazy about you